Micalbirch - thanks for reinforcing something that been really getting me down lately. I made a career change close to a year ago from a salaried position, to being the lead person for a small office startup, and I've gotten quite depressed over the last few months as the workload always seems to increase, with not enough bodies to delegate to, and my personality, I've learned, is just not the right one to be dealing with Clients and the whole deal-making, getting screwed on fees and scope creep, administration, being the technical leader, being my own HR Dept., trying to find new hires, dealing with Partners, trying to do proposals and meet all the deadlines, constant manipulation and criticism (from both Clients and Partners) etc.
I can't act, and I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I know I'm getting the few staff I have down, since I'm getting more frustrated every day with the situation and regretting making this move. The things that bothered me at the salaried position now seem trivial in hindsight, compared to the 60 hour weeks, working weekends, and the effect on my family life. Oh yeah- and for no additional income, but the promise of a bonus IF the company makes a profit this year.
The challenge I have is to try to get someone into the office that I can pass the work onto, so I can get out of the business environment I've found myself in. I have too much concern for the Projects and Clients and don't want to leave things in the middle of project delivery, and leave the mess for the other people to clean up.
I may be a very good technical engineer with a lot of practical experience, but when it comes to "management", I now know my limitations.